GARRY.

2009-07-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

i really don't understand myself at times
god gave me the best i can ever have yet i don't cherish them
i took them for granted always
i can never forgive myself for all that i've done
i wish i can never be awaken from my sleep

2009-06-23T05:46:00.003+08:00

ahh. ages since i blogged.

life now is really a big big difference to sec school life. days isn't as occupied as before when i can just msg a fren for ball and there we will be at 838 sitting down after ball then heading home for dota.

guess everyone got their own life and their own stuff to do. really wish life could be like before. right now ck is also in ns alr. i can't imagine my life for the next two years. fortunately i've got the best girl that i never thought i would have met. thank you for supporting me always in whichever stupid decisions that i made. today marks the 13th month of our relationship. lets work hard together for our future alright! :D

sadly, mdis rejected my uni application man. guess i'll just have to take my degree at uni of london for extra 1 year. hopefully switching from biz mngt to banking and finance is a right choice. really can't wait to ord. NS is really a big liability for all males. plus its a fking 2 years. damm. lets just hope days will pass fassst.

i wish all of us can clear ns asap and continue our studies or start working and resume our ball activities and hang out more often? yes it will be like that!

2009-03-08T03:25:00.002+08:00

hi all! training last week was as usual, morning 5am wake up. brush teeth wash face, fall in with full backpack by 520, physical training till 630, breakfast, lectures or training again.
hmm the most memorable and xiong one is one of the trial for final practical exam. which we have to swim 100m 4 laps in full no. 4 and continue to clear soc obstacles with our full backpack and helmet and run 5km la.
well, though my running is not really good compared to the rest but my swimming sure own. i came out of the swimming pool first while the rest of my mates are still struggling and some even walk along the edge of the pool. rofl! and after clearing soc i started to run my 5km and i got to endure the pain on my shoulders with the heavy backpack brushing against my sunburned skin. a nice pti came to pace me but i stop at times because i really got to catch my breath! and the best runner who got out last from the pool actually overtake me! so while running got overtake by few mates and completed it finally. this is really not just physically tough but mentally tough man. really gotta train hard for the final prac.

lectuers are the best last week, learned so much stuff like sports physiology, sports science, muscle parts, nutrition and many more. the best that i can get out of those are ncap lvl 1 cert, lifeguard cert as well as fitness instructor cert. heard from a NIE lecturer that we can actually apply to be a PE teacher with those. well, maybe i will consider if i can afford to go back to a government sch for a degree or smth.
pti course sure is tough, but looking at the rewards and knowledge its really worth it man.

booking in tml night gl to myself again.
8 more weeks to heaven!

2009-03-01T14:31:00.002+08:00

1 week back from course. my fitness level actually suck like dog. i finally realise becoming a pti isn't as easy as it seems. if you want to spend the next 1 1/2 years walking around in singlet and shorts giving physical training, this is the price you have to pay.

sweat daily like as though you just came out from a shower
500 push ups daily ( going to be 1k-2k in few weeks time) no joke!
one shot 100-200
16 hours a day carrying a backpack with a 5kg medicine ball and full water bottle
imagine running and doing pull ups push ups with it
7 theroy test about sports science
3 prac test exercise
1 of which have to swim in full no.4 clear SOC and run 5km with backpack helmet

out of the 19 of us my running there is one of the worst,
up till now 1 alr given up and the other 3 is considering whether to go out of course.
for those not yet enlisted and wants to be a pti, pls reconsider.

i duno how much longer i can take this, hopefully i don't crack and pass out from this course in 7 weeks time. god pls help me!

next friday who free pls go running with me, hopefully i will come out alive next friday.

good things fking don't come easy

2009-02-17T11:23:00.002+08:00

woo. been so long alr. read my previous post and stuff. can't believe it was me who blog those posts, seems that i'm growing older and everything is so different. my thinking is different, my ways of doing things are different and so many more things. NS life sure sucked. but i know most of my frens are going in too alr so its ok la.
finally getting 20 years old end of this year. this 20 years had been fruitful man. learned so many things good or bad, what can be done wad can't be done, lessons learnt here and there. guess its time to stop playing and realise whats important in life and head the right way at this stage of life. gonna endure in my pti course, pass out serve for another 1 and a half years, study another 2 years for my degree, try out pilot if possible and if i fail i'm joining my sis company! hopefully i can have enough savings after graduating and get myself a car. woot. so glad i've found the right one in my life. lets work hard together for our future alright! hopefully after passing out i would have more time to spend with my girl and all my frens! time to spend together are so hard to come by.
may everyone stay healthy and quit all the bad habits and graduate in poly!

2008-11-20T22:09:00.002+08:00

gosh. duno how many years din blog alr. got enlisted on 7th of october, so the date to get back my freedom and pink ic will be on 7th august 2010.
for the past 7 weeks all weekdays were spend in BRTC camp, basic rescue training centre, learned lots of stuff, theory and practical. hopefully i can put them to good use, glad to say i passed all my test and finally the day everyone's waiting for, today our passing out parade.
will definitely miss my platoon mates and all the time we spend together.
army life sure sucked, so for those who still have not been enlisted, enjoy your freedom while you still can.
sad to see everyone separated, all to different vocations, well, for myself, will be going over to physical training wing, so i guess i will have to go through 9 weeks of hell training then heaven! probably for the next 20 months i will be in camp conducting non stop physical training. gd luck to myself and i hope 20 months will pass fast.
study hard for those still studying and may you guys graduate with good grades.
thanks hunny for supporting me and always being there for me when i need you. thanks ah!

blog again soon!

2008-09-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

HI ALL. yes i know i went mia for so long again.

ended nike human race yesterday. 10km. not that great as stand chart 43km but its still damm xiong can. ran pass all the streets through esplanade clark quay and all, really a great experience man, i urge all to at least join for one end of this year.
and grats to hy cin for not being a road hogger ;)

yes i'm back, updates till now.

new job! a CCC in starhub. figure out wads that yourself. alright, so a totally new working environment. used to be food icecream etc etc and now, papers, documents computers etc.
well i finally understand why my dad always tell me money don't come easy.
i always thought a job in the office would be slacking to the max and you can earn money by just sitting for 8hours every day facing the com.

eww, big mistake man, now i finally understand why are working adults complaining bout stress and stuff.

so everyday when i'm working, i just keep talking to customers. 10% nice customers, 90% = loansharks , gangsters and all the unreasonable customers. meaning i earn money by allowing others to scold me -.-

but i must say its a great experience for me la. so one more month down and its army for me and another 2 years of studies and i'm done. good luck to myself.

meanwhile, sorry to all buddies and friends for not making an effort to meet out, i'm really really busy man. well, be sure that there would be a gathering before i enlist (:
cya all soon ~

2008-08-04T22:54:00.004+08:00

not been blogging for decades.
things to update!
passed my TP and got my photocard licence, it sure looks cool, yea as cool as the amount you have to pay for it, (:
drove to a few places up till now, changi airport, yishun, bukittimah and SGH. i bet i can go nowhere without my dad beside me. sg ain't really that small after all. well, my experience on the road isn't very good. drivers in sg is a bunch of selfish and rude drivers, in fact cars with the probation plates drive even better than them.
now, i realised that driving school don't or should i say can't actually teach you everything you need to know for you to drive safetly. been to a few carparks and roads before and they really requires great experience and skills for you to do narrow turning here and there, and these techinques you need to know, you can forget about learning them from a driving school, driving schools can't afford so much damages to their cars i guess~

been addicted to maple the past few weeks and finally got back on track when i realise that i'm starting to neglect some important friends of mine. YES, so i took the first step by clicking the quit button more often and resume my bball outing with my buddies. just got pay and got broke right after that. paid a big part of my salary to my parents for my driving expenses. sigh. if only i work more days. working days sure suck, but pay day is always the best :P

got on a cabby with beastie a day last week, and theres this taxi driver talking to us like as if his a close friend of ours. he urge us not to take up motorbike licence stressing the danger of it and that we should love our parents and stuff like that. shall not mention more, its really lucky sometimes to have such angels appearing in your life reminding you to do the right thing. hopefully he will have his dream come true that one day his son will also meet someone like him.

been to RP last week to watch b2 bball polite matches. though b2 din play in that game, i do believe he already achieved something since his able to get into the team. cheer up B2, life isn't being unfair, we just need to try harder. don't stop trying alright :D
really envy people who can play for their school and also play well. maybe i should have chose the right cca 6 years back, study harder and get into a good school. sigh, but time waits for no one. blame myself for still being a small kid those days. a wrong decision made could just end your dreams. well, perhaps things would get better some days.

thanks to buddies who bothered to meet up this few days. though it might be just a simple ball game, but i do enjoyed myself alot and i hope you too.
thanks a million hunny for sacrificing so much for me, your time, your money and everything. i would't be bothered by wad others say about you because i know how much you had put in to this relationship and i'm soo touched.

goodyyluckkk to beastie taking TP on aug 13 and to all having exams!
good luck to ah hei leg recover faster.
will blog again soon when theres things to update :D tata all!

2008-06-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

finally, the mood to blog! been so lazy recently.
okie, for the past few weeks, i sprain my ankle, stayed at beastie house, spend time with juannie, had bball compy, and work as usual.

was really suay enough to sprain my ankle while playing at katip la, seen a doctor, got my leg bandage for few days but till now my ankle is still swollen. probably gonna see a doctor again, hopefully it will just heal by itself =/

did nth much at beastie house, cause he always doze off fast like ~ i wish i could too =/ oh and THANKS for your imba hospitality -.- rofl. ball compy can say was a good experience for me, though wasn't able to play like how i always play usually, but indeed it was a good learning experience. if theres time i really hope to improve in those 5v5 games la, i feel so noob in compy man, rahhh!

TP test coming up in few days time, i can still remember the day when i book this test, i really can't wait for this day to come and now its just few days away! gosh! time flies. really confident for the test but also very nervous at the same time, well, i know i must not be overconfident. so good luck to myself on thursday.
pay day soon! will try to spend wisely and save up my few k before NS. hopefully i can really save up this time.
alright gonna end here, good luck to all my buddies having exams and stay healthy!
and sir jeremy ~ we got a date on saturday! hahaha.

2008-06-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

life been damm great.
i've got the best girl on earth, the best beastie B2 and the best bunch of brothers around me.
beastie patty are doing their last year in sp, B2, js, jm are all doing well in sp, and bestfriend jeremy is doing well in army too.
and me myself is stuck at my first year dip and is enlisting soon. good luck to myself. i just hope that i can still study another 2 years after my army, get that fucking degree and get a good job and feed my hunny! i wanna give my hunny the best life ever! ^^
alright hopefully everyone can do well in everything and i hope that we'll be able to meet up more often alright, for ball for lan or whatever.
i'm too lazy to blog anymore,
thanks for those friends who still care for me and will entertain me at times. really appreciate it. bahhh, cheers to all friends of garryteo! :D

2008-06-03T01:15:00.003+08:00

driving lesson in the morning. as usual everything was nice, out on the road was okay, just a little problem with the parking =/
well, gonna book 2 more lessons before my TP. hopefully by then i can get my licence!
met up pat in the afternoon for lunch at northpoint. woke him up again. ^^
and head to cine for movie wit hunny.
the indian wadever show isn't very nice. i guess all shows for this month sucks totally laaa.
after the show hunny went to meet her friend while me and patty head to kushin-bo for dinner with beastie and gene. was really nice and filling! unlimited tempura and snowcrab. what a long await meet up. oh and patty wants me to mention about him Q-ing up for a special event in there and he happens to be the last one to be cut off. ROFL, the cheer was imba damm funny. so please, people go try kushinbo, its really nice, located at suntec city skygarden. ^^
yup and dad drove me and hunny home.
i just want everyone to play happily la ):
sigh, poor beastie, again, you chose to keep your sorrows to yourself. like always.
*shakes head* i know how hard it is, understand man.
cheer up buddy.
gonna go and have my beauty sleep........... BYEBYE ALL.

2008-05-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

awaken.
it keeps me thinking about what i've been doing all this while.
had a little chat with beastie and begin to realise what it is all about.
maybe sometimes, its only when you finally get what you always urge for, will you start to think, is that what you really really want.
sigh, i'm in too deep. let time open the best route for me.

2008-05-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

been busy working and meeting up girlfriend recently. really enjoyed the time we spend together! thanks for everything darling!
napfa test tml 730 AM, like finally i din postpone anymore, meeting up my girl in the afternoon, good luck hunny for ya exam!

i miss beastie button2 hpy AND MY bestfriend jeremy! pleash find some time to meet up with me okay? will be waiting! will take off days for your (:

AND ----> PAY DAY IN 2 DAYS TIME $_$

2008-05-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

hi all.
wednesday gymed with beastie, yong and yy. though its just for a couple of hours, enjoyed the very least time we can spend together. i got no idea what actually made me drop bball. it used to be my life, my daily activity. but now, i don't even care a bit of it.

well, guess thats growing up. people live and do what they like and stop whatever they are doing when they find a new meaning in life.
19 this year. i stop for a moment and start thinking what i really want in life. through all this years, i come to understand that life is real short. people die by illness, accident, disasters and all sorts of ridiculous reasons. and so i guess its time for us to do something abt our life before something like that happens to us one day. Do what you want before its too late and treasure your love ones before they are gone one day.

yea i may seems stupid or dumb to you cause i've a choice not to work and enjoy life till enlistment. but after considering, i feel that i'm old enough already and i've got to earn money on my own instead of asking money from my parents. so the price to pay, is part of my freedom.
sigh, for those who are reading this, i hope you can also stop at this point of your life and start thinking what you actually want in life and do what you're suppose to do or should i say need to do.

weird i may sound, nerd i may sound, but if what i say can benefit my friends, even if i may be regard as a retard its alright.

as for now, just hope to earn a big sum of money before enlistment and give part of it to mummy and daddy and save the rest for my after NS education.
i hope i won't have to lose this angel of mine at this point of time when i need it the most,
i hope i can have a little more outing with beastie and friends once in awhile :D

gonna go now,
BYE loyal readers!

people come and people go ):

2008-05-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

BOO! gonna update again.

been working hard recently and don't really have the time to meet up with beasties and buddies. really miss them alotalotalot, but well, everyone's got their own stuff to get busy with. what to do )):

and been gyming alone the past few weeks and the feeling just sucks la. someone whose free pls join me gym often :D
i wish beastie to do well for everything, B2 to get into team sp, hpy to live happily, ahpat to get a good girl and you to stop waking up late and ponning lessons =/

out of nowhere, i came to know this special person. the feeling i long lost is back again. its amazing how easily you make me smile. though its just for a short period till now, you just brighten my everyday! thanks god for giving me this angel at this time when i needed most. will really treasure this gift of yours.
well, i'm prepared to lose this angel anytime because nothing good given to me stays with me forever, treasure i will now.
somewhere between all our laughs, little fights and jokes, i fell in love.

everyone has a reason for waking up, for me, is you :D

2008-05-09T00:22:00.007+08:00

been sometime since i last blogged. so many stuff coming up in my life. was busy and really so tired of everything, but for my family and friends i'll hang on. ):
well, this is whats coming up in my life.

endless working 7am-7pm days ):,
last 3 modules results release,
NS napfa test,
Traffic police driving test,
blanja a very special group of friends of mine to a big feast,
and then finally, the botak days that i never dreamt would be just a few months away.
i hope everything above can be as smooth as possible.

till september, would probably be working like a mad cow. for my parents holiday trip, for my own expenses and for future days when i'll only be collecting the pathetic 400+ government allowance -.-
waking up at 5am and going home at 7pm is gonna be hard, i don't wish for money to drop from the sky, i just wish that these days are going to pass fast. please.

sad facts of life, some friends comes to you when they need advice or concern from you. but they don't seems to be around when you need them. so, in the end is still you alone. how many friends actually bothers so much about you more than themselves? one in a million i guess. i rather a few true friends to a group of people who comes to you only when they need company.
well, actions speaks louder than words.
emo huh, i too duno why.

i gotta thank ahpat here, for sharing sorrows with me at times. we're like on the same boat, lets lose sight of the shore and find something worth living for shall we? :D

meanwhile, study hard my friends, and may you guys find your happiness soon, no hurry! (:

2008-04-28T01:08:00.003+08:00

heya!
work today. was as usual lots of orders. and had a little talk with ing err the restaurant manager. yea she knows i've been looking for a full time job to last me till my NS. so she actually wanted to give me a better post with better pay, but i've already got a better paid job in starhub alr. yea. so can say today was my last day la.

seriously through this 3years in swensens, i've learnt alot. i really treasure the times i had with countless of people. you guys will always be in my heart. (:

life still goes on man, yeap will be starting full time work at hwa par center there. feel free to drop by my office and have lunch with me alright.
well, i myself have made a decision to stop balling so aften and work hard for more savings. for my parents, for myself and also for my future love one.

met up beastie after work today at 838. and since his the only one there, force myself to change and head down 838 again. played a lousy game and head to his home to get his bag. borrowed a bag from beastie for work. thanks beastie (:
and thanks for accompanying me down to the bus stop, miracle man, you have always been lazy. LOL.

bestfriend is back to camp. caught harol and kumar with him on saturday as well as accompanying him to get his stuff. was a really funny show, can't stop laughing man. but i seriously feel it should be rated as R21 instead of M18 la. its damm disgusting and gross can!

okay, bad news. my button 2 have got some problems. just wish that he can be his cheerful self as soon as possible. some advice for ya, its never easy to find the right partner. things don't just happen like that, learn from this experience and see what you can do in future to prevent this from happening ya. but you're still young, i would say just study hard and after you serve your NS, i believe things will get better alright. same old thing, i know nothing i say can lessen your sadness abit, so all i can do is whenever you need someone to talk to just msg me or call me ya? anytime, even if i may be slping alright (: take care and cheer up.

meanwhile, busy days are coming, tml is probably my last free day. gonna work long hours almost everyday alr. sorry if i can't accompany you guys as much as before alright. please don't forget about me because i won't. will meet up with beastie button hpy and bestfriend as soon as i'm free kay. take lots of care and i love you all!

2008-04-23T01:16:00.002+08:00

mountain and balled. thanks dad and mum for driving me back to katip and back home. ball was abit boring though. and chen li jing actually turn up and find me la, but was last few balls so intended to find ya after that. but u left alr. arrggh sorry man, shall meet some days alright (:

sigh, everyones busy.
been so many times when i lie down on my bed and think,

why do i study?
why do i bother to meet up friends?
what do i really want in life?
what do i live for?
damm, i don't know and i seriously need to know.

humans are born to be selfish. who will actually care for you more than themselves?
really sick of this life.
if only i could get a partner who can be with me and answer me all those questions.
hai.

2008-04-22T01:39:00.002+08:00

had a great sleep today.
slack on the sofa all the way till 5+.
headed down to 838 with zm for ball. and decided to go 850 with button2 to play with those better players. had fun (:

mountain tml night and ball probably.
gooood luck to button2 and blackie for sp selection tml.
and i pray beastie won't have to quit bball man. eww.
):

You may not succeed if you try hard, but you will never succeed if you quit.
we just barely started, don't quit man beastie :D
all deeee best to all trying to achieve their dreams in life!

2008-04-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

work today. was really feeling damm uncomfortable cause of the gym session yesterday. whole body aching like wad man.
but still fountain all the way and left with button2. he left for his minyi training while i headed to 838 and meet up with beastie and gang. left home to change after that and headed back again. i seriously think i'm crazy but guess its worth it la. i just love hanging out with ma friends even if it is just an hour or so (:

so satisfied with myself today, played really well, no idea what caused it, but i just hope every 5 man game i can play like that =/
home after that. dotaed chatted and now i'm going to bed soon.

got myself a free day tml. no school no work no nothing. a day when i can do whatever i wan, ha! hopefully tml i'll have something to do la.

all the best to beastie's first driving lesson tml! (: mai langga ah. hahaha.

alright, gotta go take some rest.

cya all~

2008-04-19T23:23:00.006+08:00

blog have been damm boring. AND since i'm so free and have got nth to do, i shall post some photos of my fellow friends who have a very special place in my heart (:

this is my beastieee. been hanging around for a number of years. though he may seems quiet and those heck care kind outside but actually he really makes a great friend ^^ yea, esp times when i really need some care and serious advice. his always there. thanks for everything buddy, will treasure this special r/s of ours (:

this is button 2! been around for some years too, while we became closer last year. great friend to have. a real steady wan. if you need someone to accompany you at times, just give him a call and i believe his willing to sacrifice his sleep for that. caring and nice to hang out with. again, i will treasure this special r/s (:

this is my HPY (haopengyou) shes a superwoman! at times when i'm really down, she will buy little stuff like chocolates with her sweet wordings for me, ahhhhh damm sweet la my hpy! yea well, think shes currently having lots of problems, i just duno how to help but i just wish that everything will go right for her alright. meanwhile take gd care hpy and hang out more often ah ((:

this is ma bestfriend jeremy foo yong hui. been my swensens crazy friend the past 3 years, but enlisted last year alr, yup so have lesser time to meet up. hmm, really enjoyed those days together with sk and all. well, meet up soon on ur next book out okay? (:

yeap. thats about all my best pals (:
really have a special place in my heart and i swear i will treasure them.
i just wish that all of them will excel and perform well in all they are doing and may someone who will truely love them be with them.
love u all!

2008-04-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

was a rather nice and memorable bbq yesterday night with swensens peeps. was surprise so many of them actually turn up la. well, sirnasir left swensens alr and i believe there will be more to come. sigh, well, like bestie says, people come and go.

hmm, fever gone except for this damm nose, balled today with beastie and the long time come once gorilla yy.
thanks button2 for some A maths help (:

last exam tml and then i'm free! will be looking for a full time office job or smth soon while waiting for enlistment.

meanwhile, all the best to all again, for those in school for those in army for those at work and those whose trying to shine out among all. good luck!

life's short, so treasure your family and friends (:

2008-04-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

sigh,
lifes always the same old thing. so many things that had been done can't be undone.
i really really owe my parents far far far too much.
why am i always a dissappointment ):
i always try hard and work hard but nothing seems to pay off.
why am i such a failure.
now i'm dead sick and exams this week.
gosh, tell me why i'm born.
if i can have one wish, i wish that i will just die peacefully.
sick and tired of living. damm my life!
):

2008-04-08T00:35:00.004+08:00

studied in the morning at katip mac. jioed my button2 for ball. so stayed awhile at mac while waiting for mr zhiming for my ball.
hei joined in after that. balled at 838. weather was damm great. not too sunny and no rain. wish everyday was like that.

ball was definitely fun and i do hope that i'm improving as i play everyday.
sorry B2 for waking you up early for ball after your tiring camp yesterday. rest well tonight ya? (:

well, i'm not alittle affected by your dump sarcastic comments everytime. so what if you're good, with your fucking proud attitute i believe you will experience the lowest part of your life somedays.
i will not stop improving myself and when i'm better than you one day, i will do what you do best now (:

meanwhile, thanks to kitty b2 zhiming and my fellow friends for always been accompanying me for this and that. will really treasure everything man.

can't believe by the end of this year i'll enlist and meaning no more freedom. sigh, wad to do, everyone have to go through it.
NAPFA test soon, good luck to myself.

last few days of beastie's attachement, meaning more ball days, yay (:
take good care B2 and blackie, drink more herbal tea and regain ya voices ya.
love ya all ((:

how i regret i've not treasured you when i could,
you keep me drowning in your love.

2008-04-02T23:57:00.003+08:00

sch today. got back results for all modules. 2A 2B and 3C. quite satisfied la, coz have been pontening non stop. haix.

met up button 2 at cine after his work at cine for dinner, had pastamania and headed to his home.
balled at night with beastie and zhiming. was damm funny la. injured 2 person who wants to play rough with me and i'm not hurt even a bit.
hahahahahaha.

so its this fat guy who wore slippers to play ball, got step by me and his face immediately change to bao qin tian.
LOL!

and another one is this fit looking guy who jumps from behind me and knock onto me on purpose and hit his hip against mine, and he coulden't take the pain and sub himself out AND i felt nothing. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
really felt so shiok. just hate people who play rough ball!

hmmm, paid another 200+ bucks to bbdc for my traffic police test. hopefully i can get an earlier date =/

i wanna get my new ball shoes!

2008-03-30T23:04:00.001+08:00

cut hair at chapter 2 with beastie button and gene. $38 bucks hair. but i think this time round, this new hairstyle of mine is indeed special.

hmm, ball after that. was really really fun man. can't believe we could defeat those old big size giants.
will love to do it again. with my bros of course (:

school and buttons dinner tml ^^
2 more weeks to beastie's freedom! HEH!

2008-03-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

met up zhiming today in the afternoon at katip and he drove to nyp. had mac there.
then stay awhile at his imba messy house then 838 ball together with euji.
played for 1/2 an hour and rained as expected la. so back to gym with euji.
850 balled at night after gym.

my dear button2 is going for camp tml. i will pray for ya safetly throughout the whole thing alright. just enjoy yourself and leave the rest to me (:
thanks for the favour, really appreciate it. this really prove to me that i din make the wrong choice of making ya one of my closest friend (:
i love you hunny!

hmmm, ball still alright today. if not for my stamina i think i would have quitted long ago ~ -.- how to play with people like that. aiyooo.

nth on tml, but beastie's working and button's camping. guess its gonna be lonely day again =/

BEASTIE MC TMl =X

2008-03-26T01:29:00.004+08:00

passed my driving practical evaluation today! and mountain climbing then ball at 838 with beastie button and gang. nothing can express the fun we had. shall not say so much la. just know that its damm fun though i played for only awhile. gym with button tml! FTT on april 1st. gl to myself.

duno how to help my dear hpy. but just know that i'm always here alright. just do what you think is right and follow your heart la. hpy will always be here for you like how you were for me (:
take good care and rest well!

good luck to beastie in work for wadever and may my button2 grow taller with my ultimate tatic to grow tall =/ LOL.
someone teach me how to reduce speed limit please. =x

gonna turn in soon. zoommmmmmmmmmm~~~~~~

2008-03-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

work yesterday. as expected, on public holidays there is always full of people though it may still be raining -.- fountain with shuwen! orders were seriously non-stop la. been sometime since i last work till i buay tahan. by right should end work at 5, but there were just toooo much orders, so can't pangsen my dear friend. so chiong all orders with shuuuuwennnn till 6+. alright and thanks for doing the top ups for me ah (:
yea and after we are done, headed for dinner at hongkong cafe together with button2 HPY jm shuwen and gina. chatted till 8+ so din went for ball.

hmm, kind of miss bbdc life, weird. how can i enjoy lonely lunch time and the time driving around in the circuit =/ well, i think i especially miss one of the instructor there, he was really the best man!!

today, balled with button 2 in the morning and it rained after awhile.
so many stuff happening around recently and not been seeing beastie online and out, hopefully his enjoying himself outside laaa.
driving and work tml~

Love is complicated and hard to understand.
how can one ever knows if he or she is the one they can spend the rest of their life with?
hai~

`i want to be your sky, so that i can always watch over you.
thats all i ask for (:

从现在开始，我只疼你一个

我会宠你，决不会骗你

答应你的每一件事情，我都会做到

对你讲的每一句话，都是真话

不欺负你，不骂你，会相信你

有人欺负你，我会第一时间出来帮你

你开心的时候，我会陪着你开心

你不开心，我也会哄得你开心

永远觉得你最漂亮，做梦都会梦见你

在我的心里，永远只有你

2008-03-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

driving lesson in the morning and school and then mountain.
started learning those stuff in stage 3. will be putting my last few hundred bucks to bbdc and think should be enough alr (:
simple day nothing much happened.

went down to my own car with dad at night and drove to the carpark and park myself! omg man, auto car is definitely 10000000000 better than manual!

PLEASE gif me a early date for my tp test laaaa.

2008-03-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

boo. driving lessons today. 1 in the morning and 2 in the afternoon. PASSED MY EVALUATION!
AND! i completed my stage 3 practical! will be booking TP test after FTT. yes! like finally la.

really cannot wait for the day when i'm sitting on the driver seat with my bunch of beasties behind me or my girlfriend beside me =/
ahhhhhh.......soon.... soon.... VERY soon the family car will be mine. LOL.
hehehe ((:

well, driving lessons again tml. and school and mountain climbing at night.
been damm mad and crazy about driving recently, i also got no idea why this the only thing that i look forward to la.
and thanks beastie for reminding me that this is just short happiness. yea i know laaa.
gotta study hard and army and get a job. sigh, boring life man.

it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them,
but an entire life to forget them.
):

2008-03-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

woke up at 630. din really slept well and still have to wake up so early. thought about so many many things. shall not talk abt it laa.

well, then headed to bbdc for driving lessons. drove to jurong and did duno how many millions of U turn. the instructor was like : lai qian mian U turn. lai qian mian U turn. and ~~~~~~~~ !!!
okay la, i assume that U turn must be very important then =/..lol~

after that went home. eyes kept closing in mrt and even while walking. so had some rest at home and head to bbdc with beastie again for practice and his evaluation. yea finally he passed. so happy for him. hopefully i will pass on tuesday too (:
and headed town tgt with euji and jim. again was sleep walking at the back. don't really have lots of stuff to chat with them laa, so i'm starting to get used to walking alone at the back =/

waited for button2 and jm end work and headed together to 838 for ball. again, i'm still running up and down non stop but din really contribute alot la. if only i can trade some of my stamina for more skills laaa.

sigh, i'm starting to find no meaning in life. days when i was young was terrific, no troubles no problems want money take from mummy and its fun fun fun all the way.
now that i'm older, all problems start coming out. really hate them.
sometimes it would be nice if one could spend some time chatting and catching up with friends. life is not just about glory la. so wad if ur the best dota player in the world or the best baller in the world?

good luck to mum's small operation tml. i got no idea what izzit but i just hope everything will be alright. i love you mum, and sorry for so many many things ):

i have given my all, but i still fail. someone please tell me what to do ):
some thinks that holding on makes us stronger,
but sometimes its letting go.
Love is strong yet delicate. it can be broken,
to truely love is to understand this,
to be in love is to respect this.

2008-03-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

not been blogging recently. busy with driving lessons ah. transferred 1k to bbdc. heart pain but for my licence i guess its worth it laa.

4 practical lessons in one day is killing me man. well, beastie said y did i even booked in the first place.
yes, thats just me la. i always do things without thinking of the consequences. wad a bad habit.

SO. i wanna urge all my loves to think of the consequences first before doing anything. this applies to every single decision u make in ur life. fucking trust me, its really going to make a difference in ur life.

i got no idea why some people do such stuff. sigh. its totally turn off. so please fuck off.
looks like i've failed again ): why do things always don't turn out right for me? ZZZZZZZZ!

beastie is always always always right =/

2008-03-07T02:08:00.003+08:00

recently really have alot to say but just got no mood to blog.
been working balling and gyming recently.

hope bai and jm can really learn things from work as well as earn some money for themselves.
hope u all are enjoying yourselves :D

not been seeing beastie recently and the feeling is weird. used to meet up almost everyday. meet up for ball or smth soon shall we? =/

my all time problem is back to haunt me. i just don't understand why sometimes i can just forget abt it and sometimes it just comes back like that. i really hate it. i really hate myself. how i wish some things that i did can be undone.
its really hard sometimes to manage your own problems.

aye. whatever la. i think i deserve everything i got myself into right now.
i just pray hard for all my buddies that they can do well in their studies, sports and every everything, because you guys mean everything to me.

god, can you just let me sleep forever ):

2008-03-01T02:45:00.000+08:00

morning breakfast wit bai and jm. then headed for work. was alright laa. just that someJoneM ah spilled a puddle of water on the floor for me to mop =/

ended at 3 and mcys. gonna change place for my cso alr. gd place and gd time. yea. after that met up with jeremy and songkoon. had dinner and shop ard cwp. ate some snacks at cavana before going home. My treat :D

awww. my tmac6 is wearing out soon. damm. why everytime when i'm starting to save then all this little little expenses start coming out. fed up laaaaaaaaa.

hmmm. finally saturday! off day. gym or ball tml :D

2008-02-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

work today. thanks buddy for the chicken pie. its nice :D

best work day ever! its like no customers wan la. can walk around here and there.
oh and i went to 2 banks with my manager today. uob and hsbc. the environment is damm nice la. how i wish 4 years down the road i can work in a place like that. bahh. long way more to go man. NS and 2more years of studies. sigh.

and after work, headed to cine with bai. had hongkong cafe for dinner and walk around. home after that.

work again tml and mcys, gonna be a boring night tml i guess ):

2008-02-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

booooo. woke up at 8 today. suppose to attend school. but really don't feel like. and just nice, clevage goh msged me for a date. so how can i reject? =/ so headed down to yck and took 162 to his hus. slept for awhile and walk to the nearby clniic for him to fake his mc.
cab down to yck. met up with ms chionh behind school for a drink and chit chat session. and, tio psyco by her to sell the school's funfair tixs. so if your interested come buy from me pls.
was suppose to gym after that, but change of plans as we saw the bball team training. so went back to school and played ball. he left for CG after that while i met jm for swim and ball again -.-
home after that.

looking at the school and the group of frens hanging around just brought back some of my memories la, the days we had lunch at canteen tgt, sports tgt, got punished tgt, etcetc. rahhhh~ i just wan to go back laaa.
school days were really fun, when i was in school then, i can't wait to get out, but when i finally get out of there, i wanna go back.
sigh, how can humans ever be satisfied.

~really really happy for my friends who did well for their exams. at least they don't get influence by me la. really glad for beastie and bai. beastie for not repeating any module =/ and bai for scoring a rather high GPA. can see you guys have got a very bright future ahead, hope you guys can continue to do well okay.
sometimes, i really envy others. why must my life be so different from theirs? ):

don't ask me why. becoz i prefer to hav a few true friends to a group of fake friends. i just need few of them for the rest of my life.
i am who i am, love or hate you decide.

2008-02-26T02:19:00.002+08:00

pon school today. just can't get out of bed. i really hate it. i want to go but my body just hold me down. damm. i swear i will slp earlier next time!

dinner and balled. was fun as usual. been some time since we played with donglihuoche.
thanks beastie, compliments always motivate me to strive harder and i won't stop improving!
nice chat with sf just now, if you know gd for u, if u don't, don't come ask me wad izzit =/
i'm learning not to be selfish or burden to people around me, just gimme somemore time to get used to it guys.

i really hope that i'm just thinking too much ):

make decisions wisely, a wrong one can ruin your life.

2008-02-25T02:53:00.002+08:00

work today. overslept. so reach around 930 instead of 9. was really busy. walk here and there to entertain those customers plus doing icecream order. fountain in the afternoon. orders were omg. my right arm is imba tiring.

after work headed to 838 with bai and balled with gangs. played 5v5 with the phlipinos and own rivals. was alright la, can't believe we manage to win both teams. i'm so proud of myself and my friends. whole body aching like mad now. school tml and ball at night.

nothing can't be achieve as long as you keep trying, if you try you may not succeed, but if you don't try, you will fail for sure.

hmm, how can one do without friends, i just so so soo love my friendsssss! ((:

2008-02-24T03:14:00.004+08:00

damm. i hate it when pple scold or talk cock to my friends laaaa. sorry beastie for dragging you into the game, i know you got no mood to play. i swear i won't force ya next time. =/ meanwhile, rest well and don't bother abt . la. again, like i always say, whatever he say in game we can't take them to heart, cause i'm 100% sure he don't mean it.
rest well beastie, get through the 7 weeks and lets have meet up spreee again =x
work hard, i'm sure one day you will understand what you really want in life.

oh yea, and thanks for this new blog skin.

for you, a thousand times over.

2008-02-23T22:03:00.005+08:00

boo. woke up at 10 today msging everyone for gym. all were slping except mr goh. LOL. his working but ending soon. so met him up in the afternoon for gym. did the normal stuff and plus some sit ups. just 3 sets of sit ups but my abs hurts like duno wad now.
after gym dinner behind school. saw mr sim and met up with zhenhui. chatted together for some time. its really nice being able to talk to the teachers in sec school. yea.
and after that ball at 838. together with the gangs.

school starting on monday. new two module. marketing and DLEMS. gd luck to myself.

work tml and ball at night. rest well my buddies. (:

yawn......

2008-02-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

watched deathnote yesterday with bai and dree. was not very nice laaa. expected something better though.

well, today. took an hour trip 966 to parkway parade, cab down east coast, waited an hour or so and cab back to woodlands. don't wanna talk about the money but yes thats wad i did in the afternoon. i know i can blame no one but myself.
while waiting at mac, jeremy called. and so decided to meet him up since his booking in next week. met at woodlands. watched fool's gold and had dinner. i paid for the tickets and he paid for dinner. thanks for that bestfriend, i know i still owe u a treat, will blanja you the next meeting alright (: had a little chat at my house after that and home.
walk pass a group of gangsters outside the arcade just now, i know they are staring at me, and when i look at them, they just look away.
gangsters ah, so skinny and waste their time doing nth always, useless, pls fuck off.

sigh, been some time since i had a full day outing with beastie man. his attachement is imba. so far and such long hours. hopefully all will be over soon. i just can't wait to finish school and start work, earn lots of money and finish driving and start army =/
gym tml for sure, and ccompany beastie buy shoes, ball at night most probably.

alot of things i always wanted to say, but everytime i blog, they just disappear. Zzz`
i feel so stupid and i swear i won't be again ):

2008-02-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

mcys today. then met up beastie and button 2 for dinner. chatted awhile and home.
handphone bills exceeded 50, becoz of the damm small internet button, kept pressing it accidentely and now i have to pay bills from my own pocket. wth laaaaaaaaa. zzz.
sigh.
accounts exam tml. gonna mug soon. L on thursday. i swear i'm watching it! alright gotta go mug ): tata.

you got my head spinning, i don't know where to go from here.

2008-02-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

too lazy to blog ytd. studied the whole day till late afternoon and head to town and meet bai. had chicken rice together and headed to school. lol. he slept in the library while i went for my exam. econs was alright, but was slightly more difficult than the previous one. dessert after that and home. boo. accounts exam on wednesday. mugg soonn. bb.

2008-02-18T00:35:00.003+08:00

work today. short of staff so did fountain alone. orders were like the great wall of china, non stop laa. whole arm numb like ~

well, after work went heeren for shopping with bingy. bought a white skinnys that cost me a bomb and a kor kor kay T-shirt. i think it looks really nice la.
so again, its negative 100+ in my account. if only i can earn faster than i spend =/
wanted to get the shirt for u too button 2! but was afraid u won't like it, haha. another time baaaa.

if i'm a rich boy, i will wanna pamper every single one of my friends.
but, i'm not aye ):

2008-02-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

movie today with beastie and gang. watched kiterunner. wasn't really very nice laa. but something that touched me is that one character in the movie can actually go that far for a friend. what a friend! yes and rush home after that.

work tml. sian ahhhhh.............

As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there
Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me, I'll be there

L change the world.

2008-02-16T03:19:00.004+08:00

boo! slept till 2+ today. have been slping till quite late recently and i hate that feeling laa.
bahh, wash up and started my exams revision. accounts and econs we meet again! damm. this two modules can really drive you nuts.

amazingly i was able to skip breakfast lunch and dinner today. well, was lazy to go out. survive with those chinese new year chips and soft drinks. ):

stay home day today, beastie's working, button 2 have match and everyone's busy. sigh.
still trying to complete my econs assignment now. good luck to myself.

meanwhile, sleeptight all.

if only i know how to understand girls.

2008-02-15T03:55:00.002+08:00

school today. lots of accounting to study. damm.
met up bai and jm after school at j8. bought some stationary and cut my hair.
shorter this time, guess short spiky hair still suits me the most laaaa, long hair is so irrtating!
had yoshinoya and headed home changed and ball at 838. wow, the whole gang came down today. really had lots of fun with the gang. if only every ball session is like that =/
right hib bone and whole arm still hurt like ~. zzz.

saw so many couples around today, with roses balloons blar blar. really envy them la. how i wish i can have someone to love and be love also ):

well, all the best to all lovers in the world! Enjoy the wonderful taste of love!

2008-02-13T03:19:00.000+08:00

jog and swim with ahbai today. had pastamania and headed to mcys. thanks for waiting for me again. lol. balled at 838 after that, jump too high and fell =/ right hipbone hurts like !@#$%^& now. ):
sigh.

well. going to shopping with bai again tml. i pray that i will spend less =x
have fun working all, bb!

2008-02-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

met up bai and his mummy in the morning. had lunch and headed down town. oh my god la, saw cherie on train again?! so qiao la.. quite a few times already! lol.

well, met hpy for movie marathon. hahaha ahlong followed by kungfu dunk, both were quite alright i thought, ahlong made me laugh like mad and dunk made me cried alittle. don't ask me why i cried coz i also duno.
yea, and after both shows headed home.

beastieee job quite relax laa. good for him, just that his work place alittle far only =x
haha, no worries if i can get my licence in time, i shall drive you there! have fun working buddy.

something meaningful learned from dunk,
zai lan qiu zui shuang de bu shi jin qiu, zui shuang de shi tuan jie.

sorry for the childish beheaviour of mine the past few weeks.

oh girl 我今夜好想你呀 ~ ):

2008-02-11T01:59:00.000+08:00

work today. was alright, so many people working today, the swensens family feeling is back! haha, of course its because of my hpys presence la.

after work was suppose to go ben house for guild gathering as well as painian, but suddenly decide to pei hpy watch movie. lol. but after this and that, finally decide to go down boonlay with bingy for guild gathering. lol. played cards and ate, had lots of fun.
might be going movie marathon with HPY tml :D
got pay, got ang bao, AND for the sake of my licence i've decided to give them all to BBDC ): sad but i got no choice laaaaaa.

Oh and beastieeee and friends are all going to start their attachment tml already.
please take good care over there and don't be lazy okay. hope to meet up as often. take care all friends. good luck to all~

THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR
Get my driving licence
Join in project superstar if theres time
Join ball comply
Get into OCS commando or gurards IF possible ):
Build up bigger body and more muscles
Break bank amount to 2k =/
Buy gifts for my friends (:

watched a hua yu pian, found this quite touching.

Wo zhi ai ni yi ge,
Teng ni yi ge,
Bu ma ni,
Xiang xin ni,
You ren qi fu ni wo hui di yi shi jian bao hu ni,
Zai wo de xin li zhi you ni,
(:

2008-02-09T03:38:00.000+08:00

beastie house bai nian today. then headed to euji's house gamble and i finally learned how to play majong laaa. after that headed to partyworld and met up with my cousins. home after that.
i just love singing laaaaaa.
hopefully can sing again tml with gangs :D

2008-02-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

father side's bai nian this afternoon, and mother's side. lots of angbao for bbdc.
this year cny is really different laa. its not as nice as the previous years. well, maybe its because everyone have their own commitments and stuff. sigh.
i wish the next cny i'll be the one driving my family around laaaa.
quite disappointed not being able to watch my Cj7. nevermind, shall watch it some other days.
no point if one party ain't committed. well, i've given up hopes.
hopefully what come will come. ):
wo ai qiu gua laaaaaa.

2008-02-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

took bai for interview yesterday. welcome bai! new member of swensens(:
after that had laksa and headed to mcys for some stuff. thanks for waiting bai. then went J8 shopping, got myself a esprit polo T. jitao 50$
-.-
well. beastie jio ball how can i don't go? so all went home and met at 838. played for awhile and home.

reunion dinner today, lots of angbaos, and thanks dad and mum for the super ULTRA big angbao. well, gonna donate all to BBDC also. sigh. good luck to myself tml for more angbaos~
happy chinese new year to everyone, good luck to beastie and ahbai in studies ball love, Hpys in studies love and jeremy to become an officer soon. Love ya all! (:

2008-02-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

gymjogswim today. stamina still as good as ever! whats 16rounds on track to me?
lalala. well, met up beastie and headed to cwp. had dinner at siam kitchen. accompanied him bought some stuff and home. gangs coming my house later. hope to win lots of money if playing 21 :D

2008-02-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

work town lan today with the gang. gosh still can't find any clothes i wanna buy. wth laaaaa.
oh, and amazingly, this ish the first time i din withdraw a single cents from my bank for some time~
save money i must!

sentosa tml probably.
i pray hard for miracles.

你记得吗我曾试探着对你讲将来一定会把你娶回家赚很多钱给你花~

2008-02-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

met up beastie pat zy at katip mac this morning. had breakfast while they study. balled awhile after that then headed to gym with zy. had lunch with bai at khatib and home.
spend the day watching tv and listening to songs.
heard some things from bai. really felt so disappointed la.
aren't we big enough to think already?
that just shows how mature you are. i'm giving up.

goodluck to all having exams. tata~

2008-01-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

met up bai for haircut today. did some stupid thing. laaaaaaa shall not talk abt it. headed to j8 and find beastie jm and hy. rot awhile at mos and home.

lets work it out and solve the problem shall we? more hatred does no help.
would you allow a few mintues arguement to break a long friendship?
i believe little things like this build greater bond.
don't ring a bell? then i guess theres nothing more i can say.
time will heal everything i hope ):

2008-01-29T01:19:00.001+08:00

balled whole day. long time since such things happened. temper got out of control.
haix guess thats what strengthens friendship. well. i will just let time heal everything.
really hope i can have such good character like taiyi.
sigh.

whats the point of playing till that extend for self benefits. if i were you, i will choose friends to ball. i doubt you will.

finger swollen, hip injured. ):

2008-01-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

met jm at cwp today afternoon. had lunch then went SP foodcourt coz blackie wants to eat. =/ dua bai lo. wake up late still wan pple pei go eat LOL.
alright after buying some fruits, headed to NUH. visited ahgong. he don't look really well. i just hope the result of the scan will be good. sigh. he is always fit and healthy man. how can this suddenly happen.
smth happened between mum n dad too. GOSH! i just hope everything will be fine ):

training at amk cc just now. though it was really a tough and unfair game, i did my best laaa. AND i managed to control my temper (:
training again tml morning.

hope beastie will recover fast!
hello ah curly, lets meet up more often, i've got lots of dr. =P

2008-01-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

PHOTO OF THE DAY (:

watched body 19 with js and jm yesterday. more to gross show than horror ba. alot of disgusting stuff. waste of money laaaaaa. not recommended. thanks js for being my sugar daddy that day and thanks for the swensens meal. don't feel lose out in paying the most, because people who treats me well will get treat back by me a million times better! just wait and see :D
had fun though its just the three of us. both are fun loving and as friendly as i am :D

okay after school today rush home and changed headed to gym. gym 10mins and left with gang to j8 for THE MIST. another waste money show, damm. nowadays all show cmi.
but of course its the company that matters (: enjoyed myself with the gang today.

gosh. grandpa fainted. in NUH now. i understand old people do get sick more easily. but i really hope nth serious happened and i pray hard that he will recover real soon. i MUST visit him tml.

sigh. i don't understand how can one mess up a friendship build for years just because of that few mintues of a game. think about it. do you think its worth it? if its because of my stubborness that triggered your temper, i'm deeply sorry. well. game's over already. lets get back to life alright. we're all good friends. take care meanwhile, and don't think too much. even if they would mock at you, i would still be with you! (:
take care.

2008-01-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

gym and swam with bai today. balled at night. tanned like duno wad. school tml.
good luck to all having exams (:

2008-01-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

training yesterday. wasn't really good. sigh. i'm starting to lose faith in myself.
but thanks to john for always motivating and encouraging me. little things you do, little things you say really impacted me. another great coach in my life.
hmm. getting closer to the peeps there at amkcc alr. they are all nice people. all of them were like a big brother to me la.

well. after training, all headed home after lunch. sat on the sofa and fell alsleep. had a nice nap. then headed to khatib CC cafe and joined the gang. beastie hei bai curly jm.
dinner there and balled at 838. tiring day. had so much injuries all over ):
sorry jeremy can't hang out with you guys, but will catch up with you guys real soon alright (:

work today, got a call from darius for ball session with maple gang. rushed home and changed, balled. been some time since i saw sl beth yiksoon and all. take good care guys and i'm looking forward to our next outing =D

Gooddddddd luck to my beastie gang and HPY in studies and projects. work hard but also rmb to take gd care of ur own health okay (:

mock at me laugh at me by all means, still, i won't give up.

2008-01-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

basic theory test this morning. PASSED :D slack at home and went 850 ball wit beastie and gang. home after that.

AMK training tml. hopefully i won't make so much mistakes =/

i din't lose to you. i lose to your size.
I NEED MASS HEIGHT AND THE SECRET TO CONTROLLING SPEED.
anyone can help? ):

2008-01-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

too tired to blog yesterday. shall do it now. accounts lesson in the morning then met up js and jm for pizzahut at cwp. thanks for ccompanying me back home. changed gymed and headed to 838 for ball. beastie, john and zhu sheng came down too. thanks soo much to zs for his NTU jeasey, damm nice laaaaaa. =/ din really play well. but think the important thing is all enjoy themselves ba =D going to ball swim with jm later probably. tata.

i'm glad beastie not like that (:

2008-01-16T01:23:00.001+08:00

homes today. left early. went home did some house work and fell alsleep. chicken steak, ruffles and chocolates for dinner. teveee and dota. boring day. school tml morning. miss gym today. gonna make it up somedays.
hopefully theres stuff to do tml.
going broke soon. someone please teach me how to save money~ ):

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口

你的唇现在跟谁要温柔

一开始你爱我最后你放弃我

还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我

):

2008-01-15T00:39:00.001+08:00

sigh. interview today din turn out well. civil services job requires poly dip, sad they don't accept mine. well. guess i will have to give up my first ambition and proceed with the second one. banking, be it marketing or sales department also can laaaa! shall work towards that alr.

after interview, met up hycin at bukit gombak stadium. jogging with her and help her with her jogging sheldure too. then headed to a coffeeshop nearby for lunch. chatted for quite awhile. thanks for the Tshirt and all advices and lets go jogging again soon =D

tralalala. went home wash up then met up bai at katip for dinner. thanks for being so steady and flexible all the time, really appreciate it (:
mac, dao suan, and western chicken for dinner. hopefully i can gain some mass from there.
after that met up with beastie and euji, chatted awhile and went to the CC cafe to ccompany kitty study. gotta leave early, don't feel good psing stone but bo bian ah. but i think leaving u there alone is better la, no distractions. right. =x

hopefully someone will lend my stone a pen tml and curse that asshole who stole his pencilcase. lol. busy day tml.

pls don't rain tml =/

2008-01-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

work today. boring laaa, home after that then met up jeremy at cwp for cavana. thanks for the treat bestfriend. then he took a cab to OCS to book in lo. good luck to him. photocopied all my certs just now too, AND i managed to find my report book!~ lucky la. don't have to go sch alr. well. interview tml and jogging session with madm hy cin also. good luck to myself. gonna turn in alr. nights all!

2008-01-12T21:41:00.003+08:00

morning training at amk. learning more and more from there already (:
amk for lunch wit beast blackwhite after that. all went home and i went beastie house. all planned to ball again at 430 but it rained. so slept awhile then went for dinner at kopitiam. then headed to black house slack then home.

highlights of the training : black: san how! san how! calvin chu lai!! LOL. LMAO laaaaaaaaaa. imagine the confused looks on all his teammates especially calvin. LOL. okay enough of teasing =P sorry man black, but its really damm funny. HAHAHA!

well really look up to john. the things he talk abt is always so meaningful.
'' good players must have good temper'' yea. i'll always remember that.

ahkay SPF is like spamming me with the interview time date and everything laa. but now i just can't find my report book man. guess i'll have to go back to school for the cert on monday. sigh. i know chances are not very good for me la. but i will still give it a shot ba. rather than not even trying.

hmm. happy for my friends who are doing well in studies sports love and everything. i wish u guys all the best and may your get better and better alright ((:

and for those who are doing badly in some or all, you noe who i'm talking abt ah, i will continue to pray for your okay. hopefully studies will get better, stamina will improve and may you find your true love AND hopefully YOU will kick away your bad habits. its not too late man (:

tralalala. work tml. SIAN. have fun for all whose holiday already. tata~

2008-01-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

2008-01-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

work yesterday. went home and change then met up songkoon at j8. caught AVP2 together. paid $8 to watch an alien and monster fight 1v1 -.-
thanks for the treat sk! (:

today, woke up by a msg from beastie at 9+. so wash up and headed to jurong to collect my lappy first. then went down sp and meet beastie and ah hei. had lunch at foodcourt 6 and the fish soup was nice man. after that watched american gangster. was a long and draggy show but was quite meaningful laa. still can accept. had dinner at pastamania again and pat joined us after that. and now, kittypatty is at my house slacking. bored laaaa.

received a sms from spf. was shortlisted but the interview date was wrong laa. wth. and now i got a hard time trying to get them. gosh, damm it. hopefully i can settle this shit asap.

alright AMK ball training tml. the only thing i look forward to every week =D

2008-01-07T19:44:00.000+08:00

din really slp well last night. wanted to slp but thoughts just keep coming into my mind laaa.
few years ago i was really fuck up man, felt really guilty for some things i've done. but was really touched that my beastie and friends could tolerate my behaviour. but i'm glad that i am changed now as i grew older. money and material stuff don't matter to me anymore. i just need my family and friends. i promise to do everything i can to compensate for my poor attitude last time ya. and thanks buddies for always being so nice to me (:

well...school today. ended at 1. meeting with beastie at orchard. after waiting for about 15mins, this dumb stone alight at the wrong stop. ahkay. and i waited. and another msg from him, he alight at the wrong stop again -.- and again i waited. while waiting, so many people ask me for directions la machiam information counter litat. zzz. after 30mins, finally he reached. headed to food republic for lunch, then accompanied beast to topman. he got his two plain shirts. look quite nice on him =/

then went down his condo for secret training. lol. zy joined us too. after the game back to beast hus. bathed and had dinner with bai at mac and now i'm at his hus. yes to blog again. beast and all went to junwei's hus to celebrate jm's bday. hope they will enjoy themselves. go home is tv spree again wan laaa. lucky this few nights i've got beastie and caooo to entertain me. thanks for that.
alright its visit to the home tml! been some time since i last went there. shall catch up with those ahgong and ahma tml.

oh ya, hopefully caooo will win the bet then she can have my stone alr. so keep slping! :D

ball tml night hopefully. taaaaaataaaa all~~

AMK WOOSHHH!

2008-01-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

hello all. worked today. 9-5. was bored. alone fountain after 4. was real busy. well, seriously the only thing motivating me to work is the girl distributing the stuff outside swensens. she was damm cute laaa. poor thing though, she had to distribute them under the hot sun. if i knew her i would have given her something to drink man. lalala. enough of crapping.

working in swensens nowadays is really damm sian laaaaaa. the friends i used to have, the laughter we used to share, all ain't there anymore. its like myself working with myself again. its like back to the times when i started working. jeremy's gang gone and hpys are working different timings with me. sian laaa. really hope i can quit one day. if only mum starts giving me weekly allowance again. but i know all this is not going to happen. i'm big enough already, don't wish to give my parents burden too. arrrghhhhh. hopefully can faster finish my studies and start working =/

alright. after work met up bai at khatib for dinner then headed to his house and i'm blogging at his house now. com still with acer.

AND beastie psed me because today ish his special day!^^ since i'm so understanding i shall forgive him. LOL. =X but anyway good luck to him. hopefully his doing well now (:

lesson tml 10 till 1. hopefully won't tio ps again =/
probably ball tml. tata all. oh ya. and thanks bai for the coompany today (:
miss my com badly laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. ZZZ.

2008-01-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

boo. had training this morning at amk cc. think the whole team came down today. they look fierce but were really friendly laaa. had fun today together with beastieheibai. after trng heibai left to swensens for their dinner. and i had lunch with beast at khatib. and now i'm at his house. shall blog while i can. com still under repair. 3 more weeks to go i think. damm.

heard ah john's dream. was really touched. sometimes, its only when someone close to you leave you then will you become stronger. SO. CHERISH. well, really hope we can help him with it. wanted to go vivo for the police roadshow. but stone is too lazy for it. so think will go some other days ba.

for now. i just hope to graduate asap and spend more time on bball. hopefully by next few years i can achieve something.

jeremy called yesterday. his doing very well in OCS. hopefully he can continue to excel there. gd luck to you bestfriend (:

sigh, i just hope everything will go well for me from now. studies, love, ball, army, driving, and everything laaaaaaaaa.

have a good day everyone (:

2008-01-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

gang came my house ton on new year's eve. ate drank played celebrated together. spend most time playing blackjack ba. lol. was fun though. slept ard 5+ then woke all up at 9+ then had mac breakfast and i'm off to work.

yes finally kittypatty and me passed our evaluation. haha! thanks kitty for ccompanying me to so many places yesterday, i know you're tired.

bought a bball pants for beast and gave my never worn before num shirt to pat. hope your like it ah! =D

have been spending most time balling and going out with bai hei recently, really enjoyed the times together. we really had fun no matter what we do.

school later, and will be looking forward to amk cc trng ball tml. i know i still got a damm long route to go, but i will improve! Yes i will.

com send for repair 2-4 weeks. will be back when com is okay. meanwhile have fun everyone, study hard and gd luck to beastie and ahhei for their ... (: take care friends, love ya all!~

2007-12-31T01:24:00.000+08:00

work today. alone runner again. don't wanna talk much. was a real tiring day.
after work met eugene andree and his gf. accompanied them to have their dinner then shop ard cine. bought myself a sleeveless singlet from revoltage. then headed home tgt (:

time flies la. its already the 18th year in this world. And i've changed from a naughty little boy who knows nothing to a more mature young man =X

through this years, i come across many different people, learn alot of things and had good times and bad times.
really glad i'm still a good boy though having so many bad influence around.
i'm glad that i've got so many wonderful friends around me. i believe we don't get to know each other by chance la, there must be some reasons for it ba. yea but whatever it is, lets hope our r/s gets better and better and lets enjoy ourselves in the years ahead (:

as usual, for this year i wish for good health for my family and friends.
and also wish for my true love to appear =/
hopefully in year 2008 i will have good life in NS =X and i hope that i can excel in studies as well as in sports.

well. though we will surely meet obstacles in life, but tell yourself that there ain't any problems that you can't solve for the past 18 years right. SO be strong and don't worry too much. one thing i've learn is that money isn't everything though we can't live without it. family and friends are. so treasure your love ones around you and never take them for granted while time allows.

things in life don't come easy, you have to work hard for it.
cheers to life sweet misery.
caoooo is irritating, better go now.

All the best to everyone and have many many great years ahead (:

2007-12-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

amk CC training at 9 today. met team grey at 8. again. the two always late want arrived ard 8.15 =/ well. took bus tgt to amk cc. had fun at the training. left at 11 with beastie for driving test.

after that headed to caoooooooooo's house. thanks for the soup and spagetti HPY! it was nice =D watched shuang tian zhi zhun wit kitty and fell alsleep on the sofa. went home, bathed and met all at 838 tianpingtian. had dinner tgt (: stay awhile and chat then home sweet home!

i thank god for all the wonderful people you gave me. i'll definitely cherish them!
well. i know i still got a rather long way to go. but i will put in my 100% effort in all trainings and hopefully things will get better as time goes by (:

sigh work tml. hate it but got no choice. sian laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =/

2007-12-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

outing with bestie hei and bai. went cine lunch and pool. then went marina square for my class gathering. its nice to meet up with old friends again. everyones doing well and i'm happy for them (:
838 balled. thanks bai for the clothing and sorry for the trouble really appreciate it (:

heard something fcuking irritating.
i am who i am. love or hate you decide. and if you call yourself a man. say it right in my face.
and if you think your damm good. your actually a piece of shit.
i swear i'm going to get stronger and show you what you can never achieve.
its because of your fucking attitude. no wonder no one likes you and you have no friends. go and die.

shall not waste my energy on useless people.

well. good news for my stone. his 2k made cookies for him laaaa. so sweet ah. actually i have also la. BUT, HPY ate up mine ): tsk tsk tsk.

driving lessons and ball tml. should be bringing stone to get his cookies. good luck to myself. nights all.

sigh. its hard to be nice.

2007-12-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

woot. gym swim and ball today. shiok! we should have more mini sports day man.
ahkay arms are aching badly hopefully my arms can gain more meat!

ball was sooooo fun today! can say today i was more on form then usual. the compliments from that national player really motivated me laaa. i really want to play better! but i duno how to! someone who knows please help me with this.

early morning kit and pat and me did something real stupid. shall not say much about it. lol.

anyways. good luck to ahhei and take good care (: if u need me just call alright.

byebye all.

basketball. my life (:

2007-12-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

no school today. so met up eugene at S11 for lunch. then met up bestie gene ah hei and ah bai at katip mrt and headed to cine for kbox session. had great fun in there and went for dinner. dome after that with boss pat then home sweet home (:

driving lesson tml followed by gym swim ball =D

if i can help others from my experiences and mistakes they never made like me, even if i have to go tml, its okay as long as they don't have regrets like me.

one chooses his own destiny. theres no room for regrets. you make a wrong decision, face it because you chose to be in the situation your in now.

make decisions wisely. sometimes, a wrong one can cause your everything ):

2007-12-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

work today. 9-5. did some top up in the morning like any other days. then started running floor. after break one new staff sort of have some arguements with the chef. so he cried alittle la. went to console him and took over his runner for awhile. poor thing hopefully he will get used to working here soon. then fountain all the way. non stop icecream orders =.=

finally the clock hits 5 and off i go. went down khatib to meet bestiee boss pat gene. had dinner then balled at 838. ball in my skinnys, damm uncomfortable la. but the 2v2 was fun!

school tml. and its back to camp for jeremy songkoon tingxian and eugene. take great care my friends no matter where u guys are post to. hang out soon and all the best! will miss your~

you're on my heart just like a tattoo
sigh~

2007-12-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

suppose to go school today, but still not feeling well so carry on sleeping. met up jeremy fu in the afternoon. went np to get my teva then off to tampanies to get his facial stuff. cut my hair there too. had our lunch at TM food court. damm the whole shopping center was so crowded la, can't imagine how town will be like.

took a bus back to khatib. bestie slping so went to swim alone. was rather boring so after some laps went to wash up. then meet up bestie for tianping. slacked at his house followed by delicious dinner from his mummy. thanks for that. headed back home after dinner.

celebrated christmas eve at home. mum bought crabs and some noodles. beastie gene hy yy zy came over and celebrated together. simple celebration but was really meaningful to me la. and boss ahpat was away to town for business with his poly mates. some pple everytime bo xim ah. lalala =/

sigh. work tml and hopefully ball at night.

AND good luck to beastie for .you know what ah. ^^ tata all. MERRY CHRISTMAS~

2007-12-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

suppose to breakfast with beastie today at katip mac. while reaching katip, this beastie said he had lots of bee hoon at home. so changed to bee hoon breakfast at his home. watch abit of tv slack abit then headed to braddell tgt with ah bai and jm. balled at braddell again today. still not feeling well since morning. flu still on and whole face and body felt so hot. but again by balling and sweating everything out makes me feel better.

4 of us got thrashed by the big boys at first, but as we played more matches, we thrashed them back :D beastie's magic word of the day : ''bu yao qie liao bu yao qie liao'' triggered my 3pt shot and won our very first game! felt so good laaaaaaaaaa. LOL.
but win or lose don't matter la. most importantly is we really enjoyed ourselves =D

after the game, headed to velocity then town to buy my shoebag and teva slippers. but can't find my size for the pair i wanted. sigh, y do i have such big foot! zzz.
all of us were damm tired la. and i was like a walking zombie, really felt like fainting. luckily i din!

had dinner at home and ate panadol, together with coke. hopefully the caffeine can help, at least abit =/

alright thats about it. should be swimming or balling tml after school.
had great fun though its just a simple day with beastie and friends ;DD
i hope i will feel better tml :(

2007-12-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

woke up by a msg from BEAStie at 12+ today. then met up at yck swimming pool with genemingyong. had lots of fun in the water and we really enjoyed ourselves. then headed to coffee express for lunch.

then went home, and bestie and gene joined in manda's bbq. actually was suppose to be at pasir ris park. but somehow changed to my house la. was good news though. haha. and hpy manda yanling yiping cabbed down to my house. walked to the bbq pit near my house, and bestfriend yonghui songkoon and tingxian join in after that. bestie and gene went up and dota at my home while we bbq below. wth la, it rained halfway and we bbqed at the void deck. LOL. it was great though.

hpy trip and fall while playing catching below. -.- poor hpy, she broke her nail. all came up my home after that. bandaged hpy's nail for her. its the least i could do and hopefully it helps abit. =/

the food was nice and hope manda enjoyed herself! (:
mopped the whole house and bathed.
ball tml with bestie hopefully ~~

2007-12-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

work yesterday. was a public holiday so was like alot of people la. early morning already quite pack. zzz. and because of the lack of manpower they put me runner alone -.- the food was like............................................ so i carry the long tray and round tray like non stop la. shoulder was so painful and @#$% i sprained my right leg, the part near the ankle there. wth la. i can't play ball alr like that.

jeremy and ting xian came over my house yesterday and toned. tx reached at around 11. fell alsleep on my sofa halfway while waiting for jeremy. AND boss fu yong hui reached at around 1+ so we were damm tired already la. din't do much. watch abit of tv, eat abit of noodles and slack in my room. 1 read comics and another 1 played psp. and i sleep. LOL. what a day! but anyway, had breakfast the next day at mac. gave them a treat. the previous day treat hk cafe today treat mac. zzz. haha! but again. money < happiness. if my buddies are happy then i am happier! but at times when i was so broke, jeremy had been my sugar daddy, so i guess nows the time for me to pay back =/
i know u must be laughing now mr fu.

went shopping recently. bought a grey levis jeans that i always wanted and a wallet and a shirt. that really cost me a bomb. but i just love to eat and spend! they really keeps me away from my unhappiness and makes me happier! (:

been going town recently, i miss times in the gym, at sea, in pool and bball court. and of coz i miss times when i can love and be loved. the feeling is definitely great ):
hopefully miracles will happen =/
lalala. bullshiting again.

Hpy i know its hard. but remember u always got seasons and hpy here yea? (:
call me if you need me alright ((: anytime anyday. sure be there!

next week gonna be busy week. work driving school blar blar but will be looking forward to meeting up with bestie and potato! ~

before i go
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MANDA IN ADVANCE! STAY CHEERFUL AND PRETTY ALWAYS!~^^ and stop watching vids everyday! sleep early pls!

2007-12-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

gymed today. raining can't do much. went home after that and rest (:
pat is off to genting for holiday ~ hope he will enjoy himself. again. i will pray for you ya.

its hpy's birthday tml, hope you will enjoy ur day tml okay? 1 more year to 18. JIAYOU! lol.
all the best to your studies love life work and everything! ^^
i wish i could give more than just presents from store.

如果這是我愛妳最好的距離, 我願意欺騙我自己離開妳

如果這是妳給我最溫柔的等待, 我可以孤單的走下去.

2007-12-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

sigh bored bored.
might be balling gyming and swimming later. yay.
thanks mummy for the ang bao! (:
gonna invest all into driving =/

and. i finally found it.

你的眼睛　藍色的一面海
總是太安靜　像是會有暴風雨
呼喚一個夏季　也許那天都逝去
海面閃著淚　像夢境

你的眼睛　閃爍的一面海
平靜地嘆息　灑了一片碎玻璃
穿過一座島嶼　也許那天都死去
海浪都沉默　累不累

作一場冒險的表演　走過千秋萬歲　寂寞的雲煙
下雨天　沒有地點可以擱淺
拍一張分別的紀念　努力遠走高飛　失眠的海面
地平線　彩虹消失在一瞬間

其實從頭到尾　誰又得到了水仙
其實從頭到尾　走了錯誤的航線
讓海水都沒去你我的臉　閉上眼
回到原點　一個語言兩個世界

作一場冒險的表演　走過千秋萬歲　寂寞的雲煙
下雨天　沒有地點可以擱淺
拍一張分別的紀念　努力遠走高飛　失眠的海面
地平線　彩虹消失在一瞬間

我已经变了, 但也来不及了.

2007-12-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

~~ went to the old folks home in the morning. clean up the place and their room for them. chatted with some elderly too. really enjoyed chatting with them (:

some wave at me some gave me high 5 some shake my hands and some even sayang me la. can see they really appreciate what i did. felt so good that i can make them happy! and theres this particular old man who was so cute la. he asked for 20 cents from me to buy some biscuits, and i gave him a dollar. guess what. he jumped and was so happy. he also told me that i will win first price in 4D soon. LOL. damm funny la this uncle. but really enjoyed helping over there and i look forward to more (:

went down to SP after that. walked a long way from business block to foodcourt 3 there. damm. was real far man. but anyway, watch bestie compy then headed to amk hub with zy too and meet up with the rest. had a filling dinner then home sweet home ((:

i feel so blessed that i can give love to everyone around me and i won't stop giving!
^^ thank god!

2007-12-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

i'm afraid to love because everytime i fall in love it never seems to last.
some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.

no work today. changed shift with someone else so that i can ball with bestie and friends. i hope this is the first and last time. i really really hate to bastard people's shift la. =/

well. met up at katip at 1130. got myself a harshbrown and milo. since i reached first went to bestie hus and wait for him. then all of us met up at katip mrt then headed to braddell for ball with bestie's cousin.
it was quite fun playing the 3v3. though was damm tiring but was definitely fun!

chatted with ah hei in mac when all left us. shared some thoughts and experiences together. never knew we do experience same things though. how sad.

but anyway. Hpy is out to m'sia with her family for holiday, and bestie is over at someone hus. gosh. i feel so bored. but lucky i've got patrick to chat on phone with me. if not guess i will start to be in deep thoughts again. sigh.

Love is strong yet delicate, it can be broken.
to truely love is to understand this, to be in love is to respect this.
advice to all lovers, never give your whole heart away, because when your love is gone, you just get crush.

if only theres a drink that can help me erase memories that i don't wanna keep ):

my last fight in PHS. really miss taekwondo so much. maybe will go back someday.
i'm the one in red (: thrashed him for my bronze medal~

2007-12-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Boo! Met up bestfriend today. Accompanied me to queensway to buy my ball shoe. Bought T-mac 6 like finally la. Again money < happiness. After that went to meet bestie and team grey.

Stayed outside ngee ann city for awhile then headed to cine's ljs to have dinner. After that went dome. dotaed and home sweet home.

Though bestie din win. But they won 3 matches and lose only one. Just no luck ba i guess. haha! nvm i will team with u next year bestie! We shall grow stronger and bigger size! =x

Hpy happy trip tml! Enjoy yourself and i will pray for your whole family safety! ((:

Oh ya! and grats to my mummy for striking the 3rd price. i shall see how big is your '' da hong bao'' ^^

really enjoyed myself today! how can one ever do without friends!

2007-12-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

CHOCOLATES FROM HPY.

MANDA.

HPY! always there for me (:
(:

work today. can't get to sleep so overslept till 9. was suppose to work at 9. rush down and reach at about 10. thanks to my dearest managers there for their understanding (:
worked till 5 then met up with Hpy manda and bestfriend jeremy. lol. went to have dinner at mac. then headed to fareast to buy manda's stuff. then took a bus down to marina square, and we walked to esplanade and boat quay. walked along the path where i used to walk together with my loves. but they never turn out to be the one for me. sigh. but anyway. guess i will get better soon. thanks alot to Hpy for your chocolates filled with your love and manda for your advice. of course thanks to bestfriend for never failing to cheer me up though your jokes are always so cold. LOL. =X

yea cabbed home together with hpy and manda. sorry abt the fare, can't find any ATM there just now. but will treat you guys for dinner some days alright? (: thanks for today anyway, though it was simple but nice simply because its spend with my hpys and bestfriend. haha! ((:

hmm. bestie having a ball compy tml. all the best to my stone baby =X

how much hurt would i still need to get before i can find one who can appreciate me and love me like i do ):

2007-12-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

met up bestie at 838 today. spend the whole day watching the guys play ball. although my bestie never know how to cheer people up, but thanks for wasting your time doing nothing with me.

thanks to Hpy and bestfriend jeremy for your concern. You guys never fails to cheer me up when i'm down. i will move on. no worries. i love you all.

My bestie is strong. i wanna be like him.
''everyone got their own problems and the differences is how to manage it'' by ck. =D

hpy agreed too that my bestie is like a stone because chatting with him is like toking to stones LOL.
no offence. i love u too bestie. though you always don't do much for me, but your actions for the past few years and your little pieces of advice everytime really touched me and help me. thanks too for always listening to my bullshits and childish thoughts.
well. i am sure u will -.- again. hahaha!

thanks bestfriend for your care and advice, and hpy for chatting with me for so long. i feel so trouble free now! Good luck for ur exams tml.

looking forward to meet hpy and bestfriend jeremy to drink tml! ^^hopefully bestie can join in (:

gosh i sound real childish and kiddo in this post. trust me that this will be the last time. i just wanna express what i want to say to my loves (:

2007-12-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

looking back. its indeed my own fault and i just hate myself.
can we go through this together?
i am sorry but i really really duno what to do now. i'm stuck. help me will you?

其實我非常愛你　不想失去你.

2007-12-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

work today. got extend till 6. not really busy. same old thoughts somehow came to my mind again. damm. why do things always don't turn out the way i want. haix.

super miss ball sessions with bestie. but its always raining.
what can i do ):

Hpy, even if the whole world turns their back on you, i'm always beside you (: no worries alright?

thanks mummy for the christmas gift. thanks for the love you always gave me and i'm sorry that i always take them for granted. i love you mummy. i'm too shy to say these to you so i guess i'll just write it down here =/

don't just say. i can't be convinced like this. i rather it be actions.

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

true love is eternal. if you think you were once in love and fell out of it, then that wasn't love you were in.

2007-12-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

met sweetie for breakfast just now and pass her the jacket too. hopefully she will need it.
sorry sweetie if i've hurt you in any ways. i really really treasure you alot. thanks for your understanding and i love you.
a cute girl can open up my eyes, a smart girl can open up my mind but only a sweet girl can open up my heart (:

it takes three seconds to say '' i love you '' but a lifetime to prove it.
give me the chance and i will show you whats love all about.

2007-12-10T04:30:00.000+08:00

sigh. whats the point of giving my everything everytime. i always get the same old thing back. tired of all this.

tell me why a true heart deserve these.
if i fail this time. i'm sticking to bestie for good!

2007-12-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

woke up by a call from sweetie today. felt worried for her so cab down to her house early in the morning =/ waited an hour ): then accompanied her to her workplace cine. went back khatib and met up bestie for lunch. plan was to meet up with euji and pat to braddell for ball with bestie's cousin. but as its raining, ball was cancelled. and because i miss her so much, four of us headed to kbox. sang till 7. had dinner together and headed home. yawn. what a sunday. gotta go study now. take care all (:

i seriously don't understand why.

2007-12-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

boo! outing with sweetie today. hope you enjoyed the day like i do. thanks for everything.

If i had a single flower for everytime i thought of you, i could walk forever in my garden.

2007-12-05T22:54:00.004+08:00

work today. got extend till 6. not really busy but all those thoughts somehow came to my mind again. why do things always don't turn out the way i want.
haix. miss ball sessions with bestie. but its always raining.
what to do ):

don't just say. i can't be convinced like this. i rather it be actions.

2007-12-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

"I love you as you are, as you seek to find your own special way to relate to the world, or the way you feel that is right for you. It is important that you are the person you want to be and not someone that I or others think you should be."
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.